Notes on Your Sudden Disappearance

4.1 out of 5

1,218 global ratings

Named a Best Book of the Year by NPR and The Chicago Tribune

“Heartbreaking and funny, often in the same sentence—a deeply felt, finely wrought, and highly satisfying novel. Alison Espach has created a family whose every sorrow, joy, and idiosyncrasy is utterly, vibrantly real.”—New York Times bestselling author Claire Lombardo

For much of her life, Sally Holt has been mystified by the things her older sister, Kathy, seems to have been born knowing. Kathy has answers for all of Sally’s questions about life, about love, and about Billy Barnes, a rising senior and local basketball star who mans the concession stand at the town pool. The girls have been fascinated by Billy ever since he jumped off the roof in elementary school, but Billy has never shown much interest in them until the summer before Sally begins eighth grade. By then, their mutual infatuation with Billy is one of the few things the increasingly different sisters have in common. Sally spends much of that summer at the pool, watching in confusion and excitement as her sister falls deeper in love with Billy—until a tragedy leaves Sally’s life forever intertwined with his.

Opening in the early nineties and charting almost two decades of shared history and missed connections, Notes on Your Sudden Disappearance is both a breathtaking love story about two broken people who are unexplainably, inconveniently drawn to each other and a wryly astute coming-of-age tale brimming with unexpected moments of joy.

352 pages,

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First published April 24, 2023

ISBN 9781250871442


About the authors

Alison Espach

Alison Espach

Alison Espach is the author of the novels The Wedding People, Notes on Your Sudden Disappearance, an Indie Next Pick and Amazon Editors’ Pick for 2022, and The Adults, a New York Times Editor’s Choice and Barnes and Noble Discover pick. She has written for McSweeney’s, Vogue, Outside Magazine, Joyland and other places. She teaches creative writing at Providence College in Rhode Island.

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Reviews

kiddluck

kiddluck

5

Easily One Of The Best…

Reviewed in the United States on June 22, 2023

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Novels I’ve ever read of all time. Bad prose gets in the way of the plot, good prose supplements the plot, great prose disappears…

Incredible book written by an amazingly talented author! I could’ve easily finished this book in a weekend but purposely paced myself so as to maximize enjoyment.

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Reader

5

You Can’t Help But Mourn With Them.

Reviewed in the United States on May 24, 2022

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This book will break your heart. Alison Espach gives us characters to miss, root for, and love. I saw myself in Sally and instantly missed Kathy when she was gone. I mourned with Billy, felt his loss & his pain. If you want a good read that will make you so sad you have to lie down for a few hours, BUY THIS BOOK!!!

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5

Beautiful Story

Reviewed in the United States on July 20, 2022

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I liked the way the story was written and told. A sad story but so interesting the way everyone involved reacted to the circumstances. A beautiful ending. A good, easy book to read.

s. aluminum

s. aluminum

5

so good

Reviewed in the United States on March 25, 2023

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I didn’t want to read this at first, but very glad I did. Beautiful book. Five more words I guess.

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Paqi

Paqi

4

The life of a grieving teen

Reviewed in the United States on October 13, 2023

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I could have done without all the teen sex, but this was a good read. I liked the second-person voice of the narrator as she talks to her “suddenly disappeared” sister. I have read Espach before (Tell the Wolves I’m Home”, and probably will read her again.

lise r. de pons

lise r. de pons

4

Good book

Reviewed in the United States on September 29, 2022

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This is a good book, well written , entertaining even if it doesn’t really have a plot. At first I was somewhat puzzled by the fact that Sally, the main character, tells most of the story addressing it to her dead sister, but once I got used to this, I got to enjoy this different style of narrative. As I was about to finish it, I thought I wasn’t liking the ending but after totally finishing it, in fact I loved its ending. Brilliant! A book I can recommend.

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4 people found this helpful

Savysbookreviews

Savysbookreviews

4

Beautiful

Reviewed in the United States on May 25, 2023

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I went in completely blind and I'm glad I did. As the oldest sister in my family, I can relate to the sister bond. This book made me want to hug my sister and never let her go. I went through great loss this year, and I know without a doubt I was meant to read this book. It portrays life, family, loss, and forgiveness.

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Tara Figurski

Tara Figurski

4

Good book but a little slow

Reviewed in the United States on August 5, 2023

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I liked the characters in the book. The story was good though. We have all lost someone close. I felt melancholy when I finished. I wanted a more decisive ending

Keri Crawford

Keri Crawford

3

Good book, not great.

Reviewed in the United States on October 26, 2023

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This should really be called something like Love Letter to my Dead Sister. I enjoyed this book, but it wasn't the best I've ever read. I honestly found it very hard to relate or engage with any of the characters in this book. The writing is good, but the story is all told from one person's perspective. You don't really get a good sense of the other characters other than what the narrator says. Growing up, Sally and her older sister Kathy have been infatuated with Billy Barnes from the beginning. Then one day Billy and Kathy start dating. Sally is happy for her sister but soon feels left out and like Kathy only talks to her when she wants something or if it's about Billy. So Sally blackmails Kathy into Billy driving her to school. Unfortunately, on the way they get in the accident which takes Kathy's life. Bonded by tragedy, Sally and Billy try to move on with their lives. As time moves on, they develop feelings for one another...will they act on their feelings or just let the world drift them apart? Told from Sally's POV is the story of love, tragedy, loss and trying to find your way back to yourself.

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5 people found this helpful

Magi

Magi

2

Only the first third is worth reading

Reviewed in the United States on June 28, 2024

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It quickly falls off a cliff right about the point the reader (me) started to get irritated by the way Sally kept calling Billy, ‘your boyfriend’. Because Sally is obviously obsessed with him and the whole point of this book is for them to get together. Sally is thoroughly unlikeable once she is no longer 12 because who wants To spend time i side the head of someone who is lying to themselves about their own motivations? Everyone saying that this book is so original or about dealing with grief is wrong- its a wish fulfillment tale which is as old as time- mousy awkward (but SMART) heroine is the true love and soulmate of the guy, over his beautiful vivacious popular free spirit girlfriend. Ok, so the free spirit girlfriend is her sister who dies but the trope is basically the same. Read another way, there are hints that Billy is drawn to Sally early on when he’s dating the sister. And the fact that Sally is the catalyst for causing the accident due to her jealousy over her sisters relationship just makes everything that much more sinister.

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